I have had a lot of animals since I was a kid.It has hurt every time I've lost one. I hate small dogs, but our landlord wouldn't allow big dogs.I bought a runt Minpin male. He was 7 weeks old and only around 5'' long. He was so small I took him to work with me in my pocket till he was around 7 months old.Potty trained him in 2 days., leash trained in minutes in Petsmart when I bought his leash, Never gets into in kind of trouble, super obedient, and lives to show me his undying love and loyalty to me. He was acting weird a few months ago and the vet told me seizures on 3 different occasions. Well the past 4 days he hasn't been able to walk really. He has been with me every minute since then. Even at work. Today a new vet tells me the old vet didn't look at my dog because he can diagnose him now. He either has a tumor or a pinched nerve in his neck. They are keeping him overnight to try steroids and if that doesn't work I'll have to put him down. They could do surgery, but it will be 5k + and they can't say for sure it will work. I can't afford the surgery so it looks really bad now. I haven't been able to pull it together yet as I keep pouring tears. I have the worst year of my life. Even getting a call this morning of a family member passing away, but this I can't handle this. Sorry for the wall of text, but needed some kind of release since I really can't talk now. I love you Pharaoh. Mods if this is uncalled for just delete this. I understand.