Aren’t there some spine specialists on here?

Yeah. The important thing was walking to the clock before that other moob even got out of bed.

 

He's just trying to consume all the doctors, nurses and drugs so no one else can have any.

 

Best wishes for your recovery, sir! The track is a better place when you’re racing on it!

Keep on keeping on!

 

Exactly!

WIN.

 

You can see the clock up ahead of me. That room right before it belongs to the candyass.

 

And yet he is not the one with messed up cortisol levels and back on an IV, getting new MRIs, xrays, etc. But hey...........clock.

 

He's not your opponent, he is irrelevant. I misquoted previously, it is be like water. If you have a couple of minutes to look into that philosophy, that state of mind, I think you might find it beneficial. I have seen it applied with remarkable results. You're being asked to do that which you find wholy unnatural, as little as possible, and in a measured way. I think if you spend some time thinking about the end goal, you might endure the emotional discomfort and find another way to win.

 

That other dude is probably going to stroll out of there in a couple days no prob while you're still in bed trying to get your velveeta levels back in check. Your body is probably trying to tell you something. Listen to it......

 

Livengood?

 

I will try that, as long as I can win. The emotional discomfort from losing me with bother me alot more than any of this other bullshit.

 

Those are some good drugs that you are on repeat mode .....

Take it easy-ish.

 

I am absolutely certain that you will win. The emotional discomfort is not from the prospect of losing, it is from you discovering, and accepting, that a less aggressive approach is perhaps the way to go. In other words, this other bullshit is not bullshit. It is the water, finding its path, first a trickle, then a flow, then a river, then a torrent. Water is adaptable, and relentless. Be like water, my friend.

 

Yeah i end up fucking myself, because i dont like to take shit. I want to beat it on my own so I refuse the medicine. Then it gets to where im about to vomit from the pain, so they have to give me stuff via injection and it makes me loopy. Then I will aggravated at myself for taking it because it feels like i gave up and let it beat me. Rinse and repeat.

 

Wow. That's deep. No pun intended

 

To whom are you losing? You didn't just have a splinter pulled out of your finger or twisted your ankle. They just cut through several layers of muscle and tissue to work on the single most important structure in your body. You need to keep shit in perspective when it comes to the medication. If you had just slipped in some Velveeta cheese dust and pulled a muscle I'd call you a pussy for taking meds. This however is entirely different. Stop being a pig headed nutsack and do what they tell you to do.

 

I know you don't do books, but this ones a short read I promise. It's called the tortoise and hare, and you can find it in most children's sections. It's a great story about how sometimes the best way to go fast is to go slow. Give it a read

 

I feel like i am losing to myself. I dont know how to explain it. But i feel like by taking the medicine, I am admitting "You are too much of a pussy to beat this shit on your own". Then i take it, and get aggravated. I know it doesnt make sense, and i dont know a good way to describe it.

 

That emotional discomfort comes from your experience that there is one way to solve a problem. Stomp on it. You are wrong. Being tough is not necessarily being smart. I trust that you're more smart than tough. Your job is to heal. Do your job. And watch some Bruce Lee videos. And cute animal videos. Breathe.

 

I get it. I'd rather grit my teeth and not take them as well but that's for common shit that will be over in a couple days. This isn't going to be that and you need to get out of your head a little. Let's put it a little differently. What will be worse? Letting your ego get the best of you and doing enough damage to never hit a gym again or crawl back onto a bike and run around with your hair on fire or spending a little time groggy and unfocused?

 

NO !! You know (and I know) that you are a bull. This seems to be the case in your head though and you are not a pussy because fucking pain makes you puke. This is not a lifestyle...it's re-hab muddafugga. Get fucking well or else !!